Me & You {April 2014}

Jess McGlynnApril 21, 2014
dear beautiful

This month I have ummed and ahhed over whether to post anything for the Me & You project.  I felt that to post a picture of myself and my Other Half smiling and looking happy would be completely dishonest because, truthfully, this month has been hard.  This month has pushed me to almost breaking point.  This month has made me question whether my marriage was worth fighting for.

When we stood in the church, six and a half years ago and made our promises in front of beaming family and friends, in front of God, that ‘for better or worse’ we would stick together, I think we fell into that category of people who don’t really believe they will ever see the ‘worse’ – how could our lives ever go wrong when we are so in love, and so very happy?

Well, this month I have seen the worse.  It is dark and it is ugly and it has been so flipping hard to remember the ‘better’ side of our marriage.  I can honestly say that were it not for my faith I wouldn’t be doing this post at all.  

I am not sharing this to tantalise you into imagining what has happened in my marriage but because I don’t want to be false in my sharing.  I can’t put an image of us staring lovingly into each other’s eyes because that isn’t a representation of where we are at right now.  

Instead, I am sharing with you the image of a promise.  A reminder that once upon a time, a girl met a guy and found her best friend.  Fell in love with that best friend and entered into a promise that for better and for worse that she would stand by him.  It’s not always easy.  It’s not always fun.  I have spent more time this month questioning everything I thought was solid and dependable than ever before but ultimately I am believing in my promise.

When we first got married we often joked about being ‘Team Rocket’ but this month I have realised more than ever what it means to truly be a team in marriage.  I’ve chased myself around with words but couldn’t do better than this:

Coming together is a beginning.
Keeping together is progress.
Working together is success.
– Henry Ford

I love my Other Half more than anything in the world, he is my best friend and because of that I have made the decision to walk through this dark place with him.  Trusting that eventually we will step out on the other side, better and stronger.  Because we are a team.

Having read this back, I would like to clarify that neither myself nor the children have been physically hurt.  I am alluding to an emotional issue and something which has occurred between myself and my Other Half.  I am making a deliberate choice to be vague and although I think it may be fairly self explanatory I am happy to talk to anyone who wishes to ask more.

Comments (8)

  • Tara Howling

    April 21, 2014 at 13:14

    You are a very eloquent writer Jess and your words struck a chord with me as we too have been down that dark, ugly road. Hang in there, your love for each other and strong bond will see you safely through to the other side. I hope you are ok, am thinking of you and want you to know I have good listening ears that are always open xx

  • Kim Carberry

    April 21, 2014 at 13:16

    What a brave post….I hope things work out for you and your other half xxx

  • Emily Tealady

    April 21, 2014 at 15:03

    What a hard post this must have been to write. I admire your honesty. I hope everything works out OK for you x

  • Colette B

    April 21, 2014 at 15:47

    I hope things come good for you both x

  • Stacey@Nobody Said It Was Easy

    April 21, 2014 at 21:50

    Brave post Jess. Hope you work things out x

  • Holly Nelson

    April 22, 2014 at 17:37

    Really brave post. Most people go through this. It is a sad part of spending lives together. I hope you find a way through it lovely xxx

  • citygirl101

    April 23, 2014 at 21:10

    Oh darling, what a tough month you are having. You've had a few big changes recently, those on top of everyday life are bound to have caused some 'darker moments'. I'm glad you have your faith and husband to lean on.
    Hoping brighter days are just around the corner xx

  • Suzanne Whitton

    April 30, 2014 at 22:31

    Oh goodness Jess, I didn't know you were going through this. How horrible for you 🙁 Well done for sharing, it takes guts to be honest with anyone but especially on a blog. I think it helps to write things down though. Well done for seeing it through and sticking with your marriage for better and for worse. As you so eloquently put it, most of us never contemplate what 'the worse' really looks like. x

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